Just two years ago I was a different person all together. Two years before that? Well let's just say I would not be able to tell you that was me. What's changed? Beats the hell out of me. I read once to let your past be your guide but to never let it control where you go. You might be thinking well I should follow my guide into the future, right? Wrong. This may be just me, but it's how I go about it. I know my past, it's great, the memories are breath taking, I cherish every minute because I know I can't have it back.
We have but one past, an ongoing present, and a non existent future. Yes I said it, it is non existent. A future is not set in stone, I may not make it to tomorrow. "This is negative, this is depressing." Well you should have stopped reading at the title. It's not depressing or negative or happy or exciting, it just is. "Well we have to plan for our future, what do you have to say about that?" Why? Every "future decision" is a choice made in the present.
My top strength is ADAPTABILITY. Live it, love it, own it. I know who I am, I know who I was. I could not tell you who I will be in the future. Two years ago, this was not a top strength I possessed. It is though one I have become due to life choices. Adaptability for me states that I love to see the importance of every moment because I understand that it will be gone tomorrow. This is true for me. Each moment is incredibly important and fragile. Why not live how I want, Why not be who I know I want to be? Please tell me to be different, tell me to be someone else, tell me to do something I am not ready to do because it all makes me stronger. I am who I am and I am living the way I want to live. Adaptability, I am ready for the changing obstacles in my life. This is why I say the future is non existent, I can't get there without today. This one moment will change the course of whatever lied ahead for me. I am willing to change and take on the challenge that faces me.
I want to be me. I want to live for the moment. I want to do what I feel I need to do. I am ready for the ever changing leaves in life. I get asked what I am going to do after college. Fair question because in our society I should have it all mapped out and be a good little citizen in society. Well news flash, I guess I have failed. I do not have it all planned out. I am not sure where I will be when I graduate or where I will work. Do I have ideas, dreams, aspirations for when I graduate? Of course I do. I have a general idea of what I want to do, where I want to live. But then again how can I know? I am 21 years old, yet to even experience a fraction of what I could learn, have barley found what drives me and what I am passionate about. How can I be expected to make a decision when I have not lived enough now. Two years ago I was a different person, Two years from now I may be someone new. I can not have a set plan for my life and if you think I should well sorry to disappoint. I do however feel more confident and more comfortable as each moment passes me by. This is all I need. To be given the opportunity to adapt and use my strengths to the best of my ability to be the best I can be in the now. To make my family proud, to stand up for my friends, to be surprise a stranger. Please tell me that I can not do something, or that I should do this. I beg of you to give me that opportunity to be me. I will never stray from who I am or how I view things. I will not relish in my past and I will not seek the future. I will think about how I can make each moment matter to me and to anyone else I get the pleasure of sharing that moment with.
This is "your world" seen through my eyes.
